Mon 5:28am

 Well rested they call it I wont front I slept ok. didnt have as much on my mind as i usually do. it was good to just get some escape and watch some movies even if i dozed off sometimes not thinkin about the current issues is cool some times. 

however i just feel like that doesnt last long before you know you have no clue whats going on in the real world and you become a lemming. Its not my favourite game Im sure I could play some more but Im not into like GAMES GAMES they bore me. I think that just comes from over exposure. I need to listen to some music cause my gosh Im stuck in a style and I dont like it so i need more influence. But Im stuck in a style that I like to hear as well.

I need to stop drinking this ginger tea its tooooo sweet thats why I like it I know the key to my weight loss is getting off sugar and there are a few things I have stopped eating so I can certainly starting giving myself credit for that. For as much ill discipline there is around me I am pretty disciplined but I know I can do alot better. Im trying thats important so I will keep it up. Didnt really get mad yesterday I wonder what is behind that is it cuz I didnt do much? I dunno am I bitters I dunno. 

Submitted two songs to crucial. I saw it takes 12 weeks for a song to be reviewed nuts but in those 12 weeks I need to find other parties to rock with in the meantime. i dont know if to believe what Im told anymore its alot to just hear the same things over and over and not see any change. Im just being really. well. its time to make time start counting for something. Help is not on the way. They buy your votes but not your soul and thats just how it is. I see what being money hungry is doing its making us feel like well if I could just do THIS everything would be cool but LIFE doesnt work like that it just doesnt. 

I got alot of unfinished business so NOW i need to work on finishing it. It may mean that I need to start getting vicious and ignorant again but thats just part of the process now isnt. Lets see how that all goes and lets see how far I can take it. I really dont like the fact that I always have to be the asking the questions seeking solutions Ideas and figuring things out but it is what it is. So lets keep the ball rolling and go from from there.